28/12/2025
unfortunately counting the days until i go back to university, staying with family is free because you pay with your mental health amen. got confirmation for the franco barbi plush i pre-ordered, it's coming may 1st WAAAAAAAAAAAAH too long too long want him now
27/12/2025
playing outlast whistleblower, getting chased around the room by eddie gluskin...... life is good yes
26/12/2025
writing smut in the living room is a risky art. started a side blog on tumblr for writing outlast smut as one does
25/12/2025
merry christmas! not much happened in the time i wasn't updating, that awkward period before christmas where nobody really knows what they're supposed to do. got some killer headphones, some killer vinyls, some killer cookbooks, and enough candy to last me through the new year. i also got a penny whistle: my dad says i have to learn how to use it before i can get a trumpet for my birthday, which like okay bet
20/12/2025
i want to start reading again (bought some nice books when i was out with my boyfriend) but it's hard for me. i don't know where the blockage comes from, i literally did my epq on this four years ago, got full marks, and i'm still no closer to a conclusion for myself WHAT IS THIS LIFE
19/12/2025
uh oh im sick. went to get a christmas tree, went shopping with my mum, tried to watch love actually but i couldnt really do it, why is the whole thing about infidelity? it's just not nice guys cmon i was promised nice and i am just not getting nice
18/12/2025
saw my bf today!!!!! now sometimes guys i do have some doubts regarding the whole longevity of long distance, especially with this guy. but being with him today, seeing that stupid smile, being on his arm, clinging to him under my tiny umbrella because he forgot to bring one and it was bucketing down all day, talking and kissing and touching, you know i might as well carry this on. like i said, husband material. boyfriend-wise, he'll figure it out
17/12/2025
all my family are sick with this 'super flu' thing... i'm seeing my bf tomorrow and this better not jeopardise it
16/12/2025
niche experience: updating my neocities site in the edi airport spoons
15/12/2025
flopped that exam so hard i came home and just threw up the whole evening
14/12/2025
my exam is tomorrow. i haven't read paradise lost, but i can pretend that i have. then i can go home! first time since coming to uni that i've been looking forward to heading home. to be fair, it's a different set of problems, but i get to see my family and they're always in a good mood when i come back after being away for a while.
13/12/2025
working away for my exam on monday, before going to a christmas party at my friend's. disappointed in my secret santa present when i put thought into the one i gave, which i know is childish but still, i'm like that
12/12/2025
went to edinburgh christmas market with my friends! heytea is soooooo yummy, they need to put one in my town. i may go into debt over the mango cloud tea but fuck it it's worth it
11/12/2025
i'm sleepy as hell, been out all day. trying to make a gift for my boyfriend on a budget is like having my cooter dragged along concrete
10/12/2025
reading what i have to do for my exam next week and realising how fucked i am
9/12/2025
i think i'll head down the coast today. it's a little miserable for it, but it'll be the last time i get to do it before i head home for the holidays. i also need to read chaucer, which is grim but necessary unfortunately
8/12/2025
essay is done! feeling so funky fresh, i don't even care that my bank account is in single digits
7/12/2025
i woke up today with a seething migraine, i can't even eat without upchucking guhhhhhh i have an essay to doooooooo can't be doing with this
6/12/2025
i deleted my c.ai account like two weeks ago and my maladaptive daydreaming has gotten like ten times worse than it was. like, have i fried my brain or something? fanfic hasn't been hitting the same. i'm happy i deleted my account straight up so i can't go back to the bots i had, but liiiiiiike does it ever get better? or have i fucked myself up permenantly idfk, it's making getting work done super hard icl
5/12/2025
i went to the gp today! i've been watching game of thrones instead of writing up my essay. if i do 1000 words tonight, it'll be a miracle. UGHHHHH why am i just not accountable for my success
4/12/2025
spending £8.80 on coffee and cake is actually making me want to cry, at the beginning of this week i had money and literally just trying to be a little bit happy costs the ACTUAL EARTH WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT justice!!!!!!! also new outlast trials prime asset revealed and i am piiiiiissed because yes she's gorgeous but we literally JUST got the kress twins????? and WHAT ABOUT COYLE'S THIRD TRIAL RED BARRELS YOU CAN'T DO THIIIIIIIIIIIS they literally can but like why do they just not gaf :')
3/12/2025
tring to lock in on this essay but i just do not care about this shit
2/12/2025
my boyfriend is one big question mark
1/12/2025
my laundry didn't dry properly so now i'm sat in black sheep vaguely damp and smelling of powder
30/11/2025
it's always refreshing when you upgrade from acquaintance to friend. it's like the sims hehehehehehehehe
29/11/2025
how the hell can i set boundaries with people who always disrespect them? i have enough on my plate trying to keep myself regulated why do i need to do the work for everyone else in my life UGHHHHHHH jesus
28/11/2025
spent thirty pound on a franco barbi plushie that won't even make it to me before may next year, am i washed be honest
27/11/2025
just watched little women... maybe i don't get it because I don't have sisters. but if i did, i wouldn't marry their long term situationship just because i was broke and didn't have anything else to do... that's just me though. bob odenkirk jumpscare!
26/11/2025
just submitted music coursework... my tutor is gonna be so dissapointed in me, that song was ass
